Poems are for those who are inspired
I haven't felt that inspiration in a long time
Long ago when I was emotionally downtrodden
and my heart torn asunder, it all came so easily
Now, it is as a creativity block is in place
When I feel good, when I am emotionally charged
in a positive way, such as when I last had
a girlfriend, I still couldn't write poetry

I think part of it is that I am in a limbo
In this limbo, I look around and see
the impossible happening and I see inspiration
all around me, but none of it flows through me
I don't have a girlfriend to write about
nor do I have extreme heartaches to wax on about
all I have is  sense of displacement in this world
Where I see my friends in relationships that I once
used to enjoy, and having them grow strong where 
mine always tended to grow weaker over time

I see a close friend kiss his love goodnight
and all I feel inside is a pang, and an emptiness
A longing for what I tried to have but never
really could attain, a thing which I now am
jealous of others having because I never had it
It is the thing known as a true relationship
having that significant other who cares for you
truly and does not turn from you no matter what
It is that, I think, which holds me back
I believe it must be that numbness I now feel
that holds me back from inspiration and keeps me
from writings like I can truly write

my jealousy is what lost my inspiration