A
Change of Plans
I must apologize for my behavior.
For I try to
focus on the logical and rational ,
but my reasoning falls short of my expectations,
As have a tendency to fallow my heart
and dreams.
I no longer base my relationships
on glamor or outer appearances,
But rater on the inner spark of life and the intelligence
in which it has its own magnetism.
I have no need for just a physical relationship,
Yet my desires for you are overwhelming.
I could not endure my own heart,
For the temptation is to great.
And with the understanding I have of your being
and disposition I can not interfere
any longer.
Let me cause you not any grief or feelings of being
uncomfortable in this situation.
I need not or want a man in my life,
But the thought of sharing my existence with you,
If only for a short time,
Brought me to the realization that
I wanted and needed to be loved.
If we continue to share our intimacy
my heart will fallow.
And you are not prepared for this type of
caring relationship.
So, with the dreams that I could have shared
I leave this situation as to be as it was,
Only now I am more than your friend.
I will always carry a piece of you inside of my heart,
Even if it was only a wish.
I will miss you and think of you often,
For what I have left unsaid has and caries
a message of hope and faith.
